I have a major fear of the scale. I hate seeing what I weigh because for some psychological reason my happiness depends on the number. I hate going to the doctor because I hate knowing my weight or anyone knowing my weight. I have decided to schedule a doctors appointment four weeks from today. I am absolutely terrified. I have a goal between 130-135 and I am hoping to get there. I have decided to weigh myself once a week – so four times before I go just to alleviate any uncertainty or anxiety about the scale. As a kid I never cared or understood how weight worked. I know what to eat to lose weight and I will do anything to get there. Starting this FRIDAY- I will be weighing in every week in the morning. Hopefully it isn’t as scary as I think it will be. Fingers crossed that I succeed. I am sticking to raw veggies and protein over the next four weeks. Hopefully it all works! I am really scared I am not going to lie. I am afraid of feeling guilty for weight gain. I am afraid of being disappointed in myself. I know this is ridiculous and at some level sounds crazy but the idea of weighing myself every week definitely frightens me.
Puppies& Fitness 